Hmph :/

Lately I've been down. Hella down. And not the type of down like " to be widdd it . " The type of down like sad :/ I know I've been really busy the past few weeks &I'm imfamous for my not being able to keep up with things under pressure. I have very few breaking points in my life, because I'm usually the one who gives strength. Now I think I've given too much, I don't have enough left for myself. There hasn't been much time on my hands lately because of practices, beach trips, babysitting, etc. &After all that shit I'm usually too tired to do anything else. I haven't even really hung out with my boyfriend in the longest. Nor have I hung out with friends. Sadly, I haven't even hung out with my family and I live with them. Shiiiit, I barely have any time to breathe. It fucking sucks, but I'm not gonna quit just like that.
I'm just taking it day by day hoping that things will get better. I hope I can hang out with everyone on the regular like I used to. I hope I'll have enough energy in me to even have fun. But I guess I've hit another overextension point on Friday. Because the tears just kept flowing and flowing. Bad enough, it was in public. And I NEVER cried in public before. That's when you know something's wrong with me :/
There's nobody who fucking understands what the fuck is going on. My comfort zone is no longer what it used to be; sadly. I just need one fucking person to care, to understand, to make me feel like everything's going to be okay. I used to have that in a few people. Now it's down to zero.
I'm holding it all in, but I don't know how much longer it'll take till I fucking BREAK.
I just feel like crying forever and ever until there's no more tears left to fall. That fucking sucks dude. Seriously. I fake a smile every now and then. Little does anyone know about anything. STRESSSED.